Well school is coming to an end for the semester.  I'm so happy.  I love kids and teaching, but there is only so much I can learn or teacher or do before I get super sick of it.  I think it is just because I'm ready to go do instead of just sitting in a classroom or teaching students my age elementary school lessons.

Boys-oh boys. I have some sort of sick complex where I feel the need to be friends with all the guys/men I have dated or talked to.  It is wonderful, but at the same time it messes me up sometimes.  I'm in a situation where I have been talking to someone who is "not right for me."  But the talking has seemed to stop, but I cant stop thinking about him.  There's the complicated again.  Its funny what life throws in your hands at the weirdest times.  People think I'm crazy or think that I am in a rush to get married because I like this man. But thats not it...I just like him.  He's not like all the sissy, indecisive, game playing, guys in college. But then again, I guess I'm better at being the friend.  Which is wonderful and I love it, but it is difficult and makes my life complicated. 

Can't wait to reconnect with old friends over the break...hopefully the break won't fly by.

love you all

a song of mine

I've given to much for me already, Cause your strong, hometown, and quite good looking, Everything maps out on paper just fine, But you only say you'll wife me when I'm in your eyes

You like my heart but you want your freedom, You like my goodness but always try to get some, So have that cake and eat it too, But I won't be there to share it with you

My brother said to stay away from you, But I couldn't resist your manly touch, I guess he knew what he was saying, Cause the predictions he made came out so damn true.

So pick a card what will you choose today? I dont care I just smile and nod and then I fade away.

You like my heart but you want your freedom, You like my goodness but always try to get some, So have that cake and eat it too, But I won't be there to share it with you.

I'm so scared that the way that I feel,
Is written all over my face.
When you walk into the room,
I wanna find a hiding place.
We used to laugh, we used to hug, the way that old friends do.
But now, a smile and a touch of your hand,
Just makes me come unglued.
Such a contridiction, do I lie or tell the truth.
Is it fact or fiction,
Oh the way I feel for you.

So complicated, I'm so frustrated.
I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away,
I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay.
Should I say it? Should I tell you how I feel?
Oh, I want you to know.
But then again, I don't. It's so complicated.

Oh..just when I think I'm under control.
I think I finally got a grip.
Another friend tells me that,
My name is always on your lips.
They say I'm more than just a friend,
they say I must be blind.
Well, I admit that I've seen you watch me
from the corner of your eye.
Oh, It's so confusing. I wish you'd just confess.
But think of what I'd be losing,
if your answer wasn't yes.

So complicated I'm so frustrated,
I wanna hold you close, I wanna push you away,
I wanna make you go, I wanna make you stay.
Should I say it, should I tell you how I feel.
Oh I want you to know, but then again I don't, It's so complicated.

Oh, I hate it. 'Cuz I've waited.
So long for someone like you
Oh, what do I do.
Oh should I say it.
Should I tell you how I feel.
I want you to know,but then again I don't.
It's so complicated..
It's so complicated..
It's so complicated.
Ohh..